Nostalgia

Last week, I attended a screening of two short films by queer Algonquin College film school graduates. One of the movies was set in the nineties, a time before this director was born.

When she was asked about the choice of period, she mentioned how she liked the tactility of that pre-smartphone era. Similarly, a gen alpha family member wanted a boombox. They’re hardly alone in that generation to place this aura around the nineties.

In much the same way, I as a millennial have been fascinated with the eighties – from movies to portable electronics of the period to the Soviet Union. It’s a thing for elder millennials and gen x’ers to retrospectively gawk at that decade a bit more than the others. This phenomenon is cyclical: for boomers, they’re a little obsessed with the second world war and/or the fifties.

I believe there’s some value in nostalgia; it can point to the things we’re dissatisfied with in today’s world.

For myself, I bemoan the loss of being able to access a person for customer service and affordable housing. I miss being able to consume home media without a subscription. I don’t like that vacuums to ovens to televisions require connecting to an unreliable server that will eventually stop working altogether. I don’t like the loss of options for affordable intercity travel or the evaporation of third spaces.

At the same time, I wouldn’t want to go back. A lot of things weren’t great at the time: the -phobias and the -isms, the normalization of physical violence, how you pretty much needed a navigator if you wanted to drive out-of-town, the relative inaccessibility of new music and lesser known foreign films, needing to travel to the bank to do any banking, etc.

Now bearing witness to a younger generation covet a period I lived through, I want to put asterisks around this period’s aura for them, but they know.

My living room. The rotary phone is functional.

My world at home is one that blends these time periods. I use Etsy and Marketplace to find sixty-year old typewriters. I have an SNES and the latest XBox. I have an AM/FM radio and Spotify. I no longer have CDs or DVDs, though I have expanded my book collection. I just picked up a new Casio.

Nostalgia isn’t a bad word. It’s just one that requires a few asterisks.